eeekkkk The Panic Felt Real…
>>>That Far out in the middle of the lake,
Alone,
Unable to see the depths of mysterious possibilities,
(A.K.A creatures below me… )
An experience felt before that surfaced -- fear like monsters under the bed prompting the deepest desire to jump into safety and hide my dangling, all-too-exposed legs from reach of what lies beneath.
My vastly creative mind kept dramatically dishing endless absurd realities,
unearthly & surely concocted from overexposure to fantastical movie scenes wiring my brain to imagine and fear the worst possible outcome of being so far from shore,
alone in the world, surrounded by nothing but water and an emptiness I couldn’t see that didn’t seem empty to me.
It wasn’t comfortable.
And though I knew it was just my mind lovingly doing what it was created for, alerting me of possible dangers, realistic or not.
It was scary.
I usually stay in waters where I can see the bottom, where it feels “safer” and more secure.
It’s easier and I like it more.
But then,
I spend all my time in the same place.
Yes, when you can see the bottom of the water, the path ahead, it’s less scary, that is for sure.
Happy and comfortable with what you know and can perceive.
Everything else can seem too uncertain, scary, and unfamiliar.
But then you only stay close to shore, you only see the surface of the water when there is so much more to explore.
Don’t believe everything your mind offers you to think.
Question your fears as they mask your desires and are a compass balanced with excitement that brings joy to your life.
And love your brain ever creative and totally off course as it can sometimes seem.
Where in your life has this shown up? Let me know!
Blue Skies,
LeeLee
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